“Life is like one big Mardi Gras.  But instead of showing your boobs, show your brain.  And if they like what they see, you’ll have more beads than you know what to do with…and you’ll be drunk…most of the time.”

-Ellen Degeneres

Scroll down to view the Commencement Speech given by Ellen in 2009 at Tulane.

The message of the Judgement card is to come out to the world about who you really are.

In her younger years, Ellen was lost.  She didn’t know how she fit into the world .

She listened to the call of her spirit and became a stand up comic.  She got on Carson.  She got her own sit com.

But something gnawed at her.  She was gay.  Would people still like her if she came out?

Well, we know the answer.  We know how the story ends.

You might not be gay, but there is something that you are hiding from the world.  If you take off your mask, and reveal the real you, will you be accepted?

Will you be judged?

The Judgement Card is a process I’ve been going through becoming a professional Tarot Card Reader and Astrologer.

I’ve been reading Tarot for years, and doing readings for people on the qt.

But last year, something changed.

I heard the call.

First it came from the outside.  People were telling me I should read professionally.  People tell you a lot of things, so it’s not like I put a lot of stock in it.

But then it came from the inside too.  Something was telling me I should go for it.

I had already spent over 2 years building a business around composting worms.  And I was speaking at TEDx San Antonio in October.  That TEDx speech was kind of a culmination, a nod in my direction, some acknowledgement of my efforts.  It was logical that I should keep going on that path.

But I couldn’t.  My heart was no longer in it.

There was something else before me.

I kind of tried several things at once before giving in.  I thought maybe I should sell Kombucha or build Word Press websites.

But in the end I continued on the professional reader path.

Why?

Because that was the one that triggered the most voices of judgement in my head.

You aren’t good enough.  You haven’t studied long enough.  What will the conservative folks of San Antonio think?  What will my parents say?  What will the neighbors say?  Everyone will think I’m a total flake.  I’m really not a good enough reader.  Why would someone with a Masters degree become a Tarot reader?  You’re a fraud.

I figured if I moved toward those voices, that would have the biggest ripple effect.  That is, my life would change for the better regardless of whether I was successful as a professional Tarot Reader and Astrologer or not.

Coming out isn’t easy.  And there is no point in being reckless.  But it is important for the growth of the soul to come out.

Take your time.  No one is rushing you.

I’m looking forward to meeting the real you and the real me.

P.S.  I really think the video is worth watching.  It’s about 9 minutes.

 

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